Be Careful What You Pray For
by Tim Adams ~ June 6th, 2008
Have you ever had an experience of God’s presence that was so real, so intense, so palpable that you could only use the word mystical to describe it?
I grew up in a part of the Church that was thoroughly cessationist – the belief that the “sign gifts” of the Holy Spirit such as healing, prophecy and speaking in tongues had ceased with the death of the last Apostle and the closing of the canon of scripture.
I no longer believe that, for several reasons. First and foremost is that I don’t see that view represented in scripture. Secondly, there’s a long tradition in the Church of anointing with oil for healing, experiences of ecstasy and other phenomena that have been documented by John of Patmos, Augustine, Julian of Norwich, Teresa of Avila and thousands of other well-known and unknown Christians through the centuries. Thirdly, I’ve observed enough fakes to know the real thing when I’ve seen it.
I’ve even had a few encounters of my own which have led me to conclude there are certain thresholds of truth that, when experienced, lead us into mystical encounters with the Holy.
Sometimes those encounters are born out of great joy or take place during times of intense devotion, prayer and study. At other times they’re in the midst of difficult testing or a confrontation with Evil.
Regardless of the circumstance, this much I do know - when you hit one of those thresholds, you can never go back to where you were before and live your life with any level of satisfaction or fulfillment.
There’s a certain pattern of diminishing return in the life of the Spirit that requires you to keep moving forward - crossing one of those thresholds is a lifelong reminder that there’s no such thing as staying in the same place - and the disappointment and frustration of not moving forward is often what defines misery.
In some ways, a strong experience of God’s presence can ruin you.
As ironic as that sounds, I’ve seen it happen. Once you’ve seen the fire hit the altar, everything else is a poor substitute, a nock off that doesn’t come close to the real thing.
That’s contrary to the pop theology espoused by Your Best Life Now or even The Purpose Driven Life or the first of the Four Spiritual Laws - “God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life.”
But I believe it’s absolutely biblical.
I like the way Shane Claiborne puts it in his book, The Irresistible Revolution: Living as an Ordinary Radical – “I used to be cool. And then I met Jesus and he wrecked my life. The more I read the gospel, the more it messed me up, turning everything I believed in, valued, and hoped for upside-down. I am still recovering from my conversion.”
When I was a teenager I worked at a Christian youth camp for five summers. I spent nearly the entire decade of my 20’s doing church youth work of some sort. Counting my summers working at the camp and all the camps, work mission trips, festivals, ski trips and concerts I took kids to when I was in youth ministry, I think I’ve spent over two full years of my life in one of those settings.
I may have just come up with a new definition for hell. OK, I’m kidding.
The locations, themes and styles of those events varied greatly, but the ultimate goal was always the same – we wanted to put kids in a place where they would have a life-changing encounter with Jesus.
I’m not knocking the idea – but I do often wonder if we (the leaders and staff) really knew what we were praying, hoping and working for. What if it really happened? What if all those kids really did meet Jesus, submit to His Lordship and take seriously that old camp song I Have Decided to Follow Jesus?
I have decided, to follow Jesus …
Though none go with me, still I will follow …
The world behind me, the cross before me …
No turning back, No turning back
Is there a church out there that really wants their youth group or any other group in their church to follow the Jesus of the Gospels? Not the All-American Jesus, the denominational (or nondenominational) Jesus, the culture warrior Jesus, the hippy Jesus, the liberal or the conservative Jesus or any of the other Jesus’s they’ve been exposed to – I’m talking about the Jesus we read about in the first four books of the New Testament.
We need to be careful what we pray for – and not to stand too close to the fire – unless we’re willing to live with the outcome.
